Monday, September 10, 2007

Severe Depression

It feels weird talking about severe depression one post after talking about tropical paradise, but maybe the juxtaposition gives you an idea of the roller-coaster ride of emotion one can take on their prescription Malaria medication. I'm feeling pretty bad today (and also physically sick) from the drugs. I'm starting to question why I even took the preventative medication when I could have skipped it, saved the money, avoided the sickness, depression, and strange dreams, and just treated the malaria easily after I contracted it. Next time I might just go that route, although this might have been the better option given our upcoming expedition. Malaria can lie dormant in your body for three to four weeks and then strike, so even though I will be far above the mosquito line once I'm on Mt. Kilimanjaro, it could still strike from an infection two weeks ago. Thus, I think it was good to have take the preventative measure.

I've really enjoyed my experience here, but I feel like I am ready to go home. Some things are starting to wear on me quite a bit. At times, it feels like everyone is out to lie, cheat, or steal from you at a moment's notice. Today, the one computer professor Safari College had took off and took a lot of things with him, including the computer parts I use to teach my class, the school's only textbook for the applications class, and parts from computers which now no longer work. I managed to take spare parts from three broken computers to forge together one working one, and even fixed one monitor, which I have never done before, so at least that was a plus. There is no longer a computer instructor, so I guess when I leave this week the computer classes will just stop (?).

I think the problem is just that the Larium builds on top of itself with each dose we take (the same problems are afflicting Sarah). We take the pills on Saturday morning, so Monday morning usually brings sickness and emotional problems. I'm hoping it will clear up by tomorrow, but either way it is going to be a really tough Monday on the mountain next week.


tales_from_the_crib said...

i guess it's a good thing you were there to throw together a computer from spare parts, that's not easy to do if you don't know what you're doing...and how're sarah's classes going?

Sarah said...

My nursery school classes are pretty good, although the kids don't know very much English and are not very advanced in school. I love playing jump rope with them and teaching them "Ring around the Rosies!"

Mom said...


I have to admit I am counting the days until you leave. Hang in there.

Love and miss you both.